| i should be creating a new xanga soon, this one doesnt apply to me recently. ^_^
im back on track kiddos, and better than ever.
"this fish costs 14 DOLLARS!!???" hahahha
ive got BIGGG plans for valentines day
YOUR ALL MINE BABE
pam and jim are doing just fine *smile* |
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| He hits the lights. This doesn't seem quite fair. Despite everything she learned from her friends, she doesn't feel so prepared. he's breathing quiet and smooth, she's gasping for air. "This is the first and last time", she said. he fakes a smile and presses her hips into his. she keeps her hands pinned down at her sides. she's holding back from telling him exactly what it really feels like. she is the lamb, he is the slaughter. he's moving way too fast and all she wanted was to hold him. Nothing that he touches is really having an effect. she whispers that she loves him, but he's probably only looking for... So much more than she could ever give. A life full of lies and failing relationships. she keeps her hands pinned down at her sides. she waits for it to end and for the aching in her guts to subside.
UHHHGGG...it was not supposed to be this way
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| you said you hated my suffering
and you understood, and youd be there for me
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GOD DAMNIT i wish i hadnt walked there after school
i wish i hadnt trusted him
i wish i didnt drink the vodka he gave me
i wish i didnt forgive him
i wish this didnt happen EVERY TIME I TRY to move on without you
i wish you were here holding me, telling me it would be okay
i wish i didnt still whisper YOUR name when i sleep with HIM
i wish i didnt remember EVERY detail about our first time
i wish i didnt wake up just now
i wish i wasnt throwing up
I WISH YOU HAD NEVER LEFT ME
i wish i could have gone through with it at the lake on halloween on the dock where you kissed me
i wish i still had the gun
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